January 2013

2012 ended with a resolve to get off anxiety and pain medications. This is the journal of events in which I hope to learn to manage my own pain without the harsh side effects of benzodiazepines, harsh pain meds and SSRI's.

 It began with sampling a few strains of cannabis to see if this would help manage:

1.  Anxiety (diagnosed by multiple physicians for over 15 years).
2.  Pain in my neck (degenerative disk disease, diagnosed by a physician and confirmed with x-rays).
3. Migraines  (diagnosed for over 20 years, by multiple physicians). 
4. And the list goes on.

 With enough basic evidence to believe this could work, in 2013 I saw a doctor and got a medical note to use medicinal marijuana. After seeing how hard it is to obtain medicine of the cannabis kind, I decided to take my doctors advice and grow my own medicine.

(When I mean how hard it is to obtain, I mean going into high crime areas, finding most of the dispensaries shut down, calling the doctor to get help to find a source, but being told legally they could not refer me).

I went to the internet for weeks and weeks of research..."where to get seeds, a plant, how to grow, local and state laws, Sativa, Indica, auto flowering, indoor, outdoor..". And the list goes on and on. Also all the soul searching on.... "who to tell, where to grow, what will the grown kids think?" and that list goes on and on. And then a lot of research still to come on the methods of taking the medicine, "smoke, vape, eat...". And the list goes on.. Or all of the above.

  I must confess it is also exciting and fun to get my grow on!  Getting seeds, soil, and getting my whole appetite back for gardening flowers, tomatoes and basically more time outside which I have been avoiding for years.


2/26/2013..... Seeds were gently set on wet paper towels, on a saucer covered with another saucer. I used a microwaveable heat pack to keep the temps warmish.

2/27/2013..... 24 hour check... Everything moist, dark, humid and one little seed is cracked.